In the Name of Allah, the Most Compassionate, the Most Merciful
This page is built on the shoulders of those people who have volunteered their personal stories of how they entered Islam.
If you, the reader, are open to the possibility that Allah, the Creator, has given you clear evidence to accept Him
and His message of Islam, then read these stories. From different backgrounds, and different experiences, you just might find
someone here who had the same questions and doubts that you may have. Many of these people have endured against tremendous
obstacles, including parental opposition, despair with other religions, being blind, and being lied to about the true nature
If you would like to share your story on how you entered Islam, please let us know! Send your story to firstname.lastname@example.org
May 2, 1996. Ever since I can remember, my family attended a non-denominational conservative
Christian church (Church of Christ). I grew up in the church, taught bible school and sang in the choir. As a young teenager
I began asking questions (as I think everyone does at one point in their lives): Why was I a member of the Church of Christ
and not say Lutheran, Catholic or Methodist? If various churches are teaching conflicting doctrine, how do we know which one
is right? Are they all right? Do `all paths lead to God' as I had heard some say? Others say that as long as you are a good
person it doesn't matter what you believe - is that true?
After some soul searching I decided that I did believe that there was an ultimate truth and in an attempt
to find that truth I began a comparison study of various churches. I decided that I believed in the Bible and would join the
church that best followed the Bible. After a lengthy study, I decided to stay with the Church of Christ, satisfied that its
doctrines were biblically sound (unaware at this stage that there could be various interpretations of the Bible).
I spent a year at Michigan Christian College, a small college affiliated with the Churches of Christ,
but was not challenged academically and so transferred to Western Michigan University. Having applied late for student housing,
I was placed in the international dorm. Although my roommate was American, I felt surrounded by strange people from strange
places. It was in fact my first real experience with cultural diversity and it scared me (having been raised in a white, middle
class, Christian community). I wanted to change dorms but there wasn't anything available. I did really like my roommate and
decided to stick out the semester.
My roommate became very involved in the dorm activities and got to know most everyone in the dorm.
I however performed with the marching band and spent most of my time with band people. Marching season soon ended and finding
myself with time on my hands, I joined my roommate on her adventures around the dorm. It turned out to be a wonderful, fascinating
experience! There were a large number of Arab men living in the dorm. They were charming, handsome, and a lot of fun to be
around. My roommate started dating one of them and we ended up spending most of our time with the Arabs. I guess I knew they
were Muslims (although very few of them were practicing). We never really discussed religion, we were just having
The year passed and I had started seeing one of the Arabs. Again, we were just enjoying each other's
company and never discussed our religious differences. Neither of us were practicing at this time so it never really became
an issue for us. I did, deep down, feel guilty for not attending church, but I pushed it in the back of my mind. I was having
too much fun.
Another year passed and I was home for summer vacation when my roommate called me with some very distressing
news: she'd become a Muslim!! I was horrified. She didn't tell me why she converted, just that she had spent a lot of time
talking with her boyfriend's brother and it all made sense to her. After we hung up, I immediately wrote her a long letter
explaining that she was ruining her life and to just give Christianity one more chance. That same summer my boyfriend transferred
to Azusa Pacific University in California. We decided to get married and move to California together. Again, since neither
one were practicing, religion was not discussed.
Secretly I started reading books on Islam. However I read books that were written by non-Muslims. One
of the books I read was Islam Revealed by Anis Sorosh. I felt guilty about my friend's conversion. I felt that if
I had been a better Christian, she would have turned to the church rather than Islam. Islam was a man-made religion, I believed,
and filled with contradictions. After reading Sorosh's book, I thought I could convert my friend and my husband to Christianity.
At APU, my husband was required to take a few religion courses. One day he came home from class and
said: "The more I learn about Christianity, the stronger my belief in Islam becomes." At about this same time he started showing
signs of wanting to practice his religion again. Our problems began. We started talking about religion and arguing about our
different beliefs. He told me I should learn about Islam and I told him I already knew everything I needed to know. I got
out Sorosh's book and told him I could never believe in Islam. My husband is not a scholar by any stretch of the imagination,
yet he had an answer for everything I showed him in Sorosh's book. I was impressed by his knowledge. He told me that if I
really wanted to learn about Islam it must be through Islamic sources. He bought a few books for me from
an Islamic bookstore and I started taking classes at a local mosque. What a difference the Islam I learned about from Muslim
sources from the Islam I learned about from non-Muslims!
It was so difficult though when I actually decided to convert. My pride stood in the way for awhile.
How could I admit to my husband and my friend that they were right all along? I felt humiliated, embarrassed. Soon though,
I could deny the truth no longer, swallowed my pride, and alhamdulilah, embraced Islam - the best decision I ever made.
A few things I want to say to the non-Muslim reader:
- When I originally began my search for the truth all those years ago, I made a few wrong assumptions.
First, I assumed that the truth is with Christianity only. It never occurred to me at that time to look outside Christianity.
Second, I assumed that the Bible was the true Word of God. These were bad assumptions because they prohibited me from looking
at things objectively. When I began my earnest study of Islam, I had to start at the very beginning, with no preconceived
ideas. I was not a Christian looking at Islam; I looked at both Islam and Christianity (and many other religions) from the
point of view of an outsider. My advice to you is to be a critical thinker and a critical reader.
- Another mistake that many people make when talking about Islam is that they pick out a certain teaching
and judge the whole of Islam on that one point. For example, many people say that Islam is prejudiced towards women because
Islamic laws of inheritance award the male twice as much as the female. What they fail to learn, however, is that males have
financial responsibilities in Islam that females do not have. It is like putting a puzzle together: until you have all the
pieces in the right places, you cannot make a statement about the picture, you cannot look at one little piece of the puzzle
and judge the whole picture.
- Many people said that the only reason I converted was because of my husband. It is true that I studied
Islam because he asked me to - but I accepted Islam because it is the truth. My husband and I are currently separated and
plan to divorce in June, insha' Allah. My faith in Islam has never been stronger than it is now. I look forward to finding
a practicing Muslim husband, insha' Allah, and growing in my faith and practice. Being a good Muslim is my number one priority.
May Allah lead all of us closer to the truth.
As a young girl born in the Northwest of the USA, my dream was to become a nun. Growing up Roman Catholic, I saw the nuns
have a spirtual presence that attracted me until I reached the age of 14. It was then I started having misgivings about Catholic
doctrine, so I gravitated towards the Protestant faiths. The trinity was a lingering concern for me. I often just tried "to
have faith" but my own logic overruled this, so many considered me "not serious enough to be spiritual". At the age of 20
I began talking religion to a cab driver, and heard the term Islam for the first time from a real person. The nightly news
talked about Islam and the Muslims - sure, they were called terrorists. I presented this to my driver, who Alhamdulillah laughed
softly and suggested I read Al-Quran. Actually, I read a few books on Islam first, then the Quran. This is when I knew I could
have both my faith and logic, and Alhamdulillah I found I wasn't crazy after all. It took another two years before I took
Shahada, and another two before hijab.
Alhamdullah now at 29, I have my faith, health, oh, and a terrific husband as well (this is one of my first prayers or
duas answered!). My story is not unusual, quite boring if you are not me I suppose, yet I never tire of telling others my
story. I could tell of my family, that would be unusual. They have never been happier with me, although my sister still does
not like my hijab, all members are in agreement, I am happier, more centered, and above all I have peace where before was
chaos and confusion. It didn't happen over night, I have worked and am still working at this, you don't "convert" and that
is it, everyday comes the struggle to learn, only now I welcome struggle. Inshallah, God Willing, my story has inspired someone,
at any rate thank you for reading my story. May Allah Guide those who Search.
C. Huda Dodge
[This document originally appeared in a Usenet newsgroup back in 1992 roughly -ed.]
Salaam alaykum wa rahmatullah.
Since I have started reading and posting on this newsgroup a few months ago, I have noticed a great interest in converts
(reverts) to Islam: how are people introduced to it, what attracts people to this faith, how their life changes when they
embrace Islam, etc. I have received a lot of e-mail from people asking me these questions. In this post, I hope insha'Allah
to address how, when and why an American like myself came to embrace Islam.
It's long, and I'm sorry for that, but I don't think you can fully understand this process from a few paragraphs. I tried
not to ramble on or get off on tangents. At times the story is detailed, because I think it helps to truly understand how
my path to Islam developed. Of course, there's a lot I left out (I'm not trying to tell you my whole life story - just the
It's interesting for me to look back on my life and see how it all fits together - how Allah planned this for me all along.
When I think about it, I can't help saying `Subhannallah,' and thank Allah for bringing me to where I am today. At other times,
I feel sad that I was not born into Islam and [thereby] been a Muslim all my life. While I admire those who were,
I at times pity them because sometimes they don't really appreciate this blessing.
Insha'Allah, reading this can help you understand how I, at least, came to be a Muslim. Whether it gives you ideas for
da'wah, or just gives you some inspiration in your own faith, I hope it is worth your time to read it, insha'Allah. It is
my story, but I think a lot of others might see themselves in it.
I was born in San Francisco, California, and raised in a Bay Area suburb. My small town (San Anselmo, pop. about 14,000
last I checked) was a mostly white, upper-middle-class, Christian community. It is a beautiful area - just north of San Francisco
(across the Golden Gate Bridge), nestled in a valley near the hillsides (Mount Tamalpais) and the Pacific Ocean. I knew all
of my neighbors, played baseball in the street, caught frogs in the creeks, rode horses in the hills, and climbed trees in
my front yard.
My father is Presbyterian, and my mother is Catholic. My father was never really active in any church, but my mother tried
to raise us as Catholics. She took us to church sometimes, but we didn't know what was going on. People stand up, sit down,
kneel, sit again, stand up, and recite things after the priest. Each pew had a booklet - a kind of `direction book' -and we
had to follow along in order to know what to do next (if we didn't fall asleep first). I was baptized in this church, and
received my First Communion at about the age of 8 (I have pictures, but I don't remember it much). After that, we only went
about once a year.
I lived on a dead-end street of about 15 houses. My grammar school was at the end of the street (4 houses down), next to
a small Presbyterian church. When I was about 10, the people of this church invited me to participate in their children's
Christmas play. Every Sunday morning from then on, I walked down to church alone (no one else in my family was interested
in coming). The whole congregation was only about 30 older people (past their 50's), but they were nice and never made me
feel out of place. There were about 3 younger couples with children younger than me.
I became a very active member of this church down the street. When I was in 6th grade, I started babysitting the younger
kids during the service. By 9th grade, I was helping the minister's wife teach Sunday school. In high school, I started a
church youth group by recruiting 4 of my friends to join me. It was a small group: me, my friends, and a young couple with
kids, but we liked it that way. The big Presbyterian church in town had about 100 kids in their youth group and took trips
to Mexico, etc. But our group was content to get together to study the bible, talk about God, and raise money for charities.
These friends and I would sit together and talk about spiritual issues. We debated about questions in our minds: what happens
to the people who lived before Jesus came (go to heaven or hell); why do some very righteous people automatically go to hell
just because they don't believe in Jesus (we thought about Gandhi); on the other hand, why do some pretty horrible people
(like my friend's abusive father) get rewarded with heaven just because they're Christian; why does a loving and merciful
God require a blood sacrifice (Jesus) to forgive people's sins; why are we guilty of Adam's original sin; why does
the Word of God (Bible) disagree with scientific facts; how can Jesus be God; how can One God be 3 different things; etc.
We debated about these things, but never came up with good answers. The church couldn't give us good answers either; they
only told us to "have faith."
The people at church told me about a Presbyterian summer camp in Northern California. I went for the first time when I
was 10. For the next 7 years, I went every summer. While I was happy with the little church I went to, this is where
I really felt in touch with God, without confusion. It was here that I developed my very deep faith in God. We spent
much of our time outdoors, playing games, doing crafts, swimming, etc. It was fun, but every day we would also take time out
to pray, study the bible, sing spiritual songs, and have `quiet time.' It is this quiet time that really meant a lot to me,
and of which I have the best memories. The rule was that you had to sit alone - anywhere on the camp's 200 beautiful
acres. I would often go to a meadow, or sit on a bridge overlooking the creek, and just THINK. I looked around me, at the
creek, the trees, the clouds, the bugs :) - listened to the water, the birds' songs, the crickets' chirps. This place really
let me feel at peace, and I admired and thanked God for His beautiful creation. At the end of each summer, when I returned
back home, this feeling stayed with me. I loved to spend time outdoors, alone, to just think about God, life, and my place
in it. I developed my personal understanding of Jesus' role as a teacher and example, and left all the confusing church teachings
I believed (and still do) in the teaching "Love your neighbor as yourself," fully giving to others without expecting anything
in return, treating others as you would like to be treated. I strived to help everyone I could. When I was fourteen, I got
my first job, at an ice cream store. When I got my paycheck each month (it wasn't much), I sent the first $25 to a program
called `Foster Parents Plan' (they've changed the name now). This was a charity that hooked up needy children overseas with
American sponsors. During my 4 years of high school, I was a sponsor for a young Egyptian boy named Sherif. I sent him part
of my paycheck each month, and we exchanged letters. (His letters were in Arabic, and looking at them now, it appears that
he believed he was writing to an adult man, not a girl 5 years older than him.) He was 9 years old, his father was dead, and
his mother was ill and couldn't work. He had 2 younger brothers and a sister my age. I remember getting a letter from him
when I was 16 - he was excited because his sister had gotten engaged. I thought, "She's the same age as me, and she's getting
engaged!!!" It seemed so foreign to me. These were the first Muslims I had contact with.
Aside from this, I was also involved with other activities in high school. I tutored Central American students at my school
in English. In a group called "Students for Social Responsibility," I helped charities for Nicaraguan school children and
Kenyan villagers. We campaigned against nuclear arms (the biggest fear we all had at that time was of a nuclear war).
I invited exchange students from France into my home, and I had penpals from all over the world (France, Germany, Sweden,
etc.). My junior year of high school, we hosted a group called `Children of War' - a group of young people from South Africa,
Gaza Strip, Guatemala, and other war-torn lands, who toured the country telling their stories and their wishes for peace.
Two of them stayed at my house - the group's chaperone from Nicaragua, and a young black South African man. The summer after
my junior year of high school, I took a volunteer job in San Francisco (the Tenderloin district), teaching English to refugee
women. In my class were Fatimah and Maysoon, 2 Chinese Muslim widows from Vietnam. These were the next Muslims I met, although
we couldn't talk much (their English was too minimal). All they did was laugh.
All of these experiences put me in touch with the outside world, and led me to value people of all kinds. Throughout my
youth and high school, I had developed two very deep interests: faith in God, and interacting with people from other countries.
When I left home to attend college in Portland, Oregon, I brought these interests with me.
At Lewis & Clark College, I started out as a Foreign Language (French & Spanish) major, with a thought to one day
work with refugee populations, or teach English as a Second Language. When I arrived at school, I moved into a dorm room with
two others - a girl from California (who grew up only 10 minutes from where I did), and a 29-year-old Japanese woman (exchange
student). I was 17.
I didn't know anyone else at school, so I tried to get involved in activities to meet people. In line with my interests,
I chose to get involved with 2 groups: Campus Crusade for Christ (obviously, a Christian group), and Conversation Groups (where
they match Americans up with a group of international students to practice English).
I met with the Campus Crusade students during my first term of school. A few of the people that I met were very nice, pure-hearted
people, but the majority were very ostentatious. We got together every week to listen to "personal testimonies," sing songs,
etc. Every week we visited a different church in the Portland area. Most of the churches were unlike anything I'd ever been
exposed to before. One final visit to a church in the Southeast area freaked me out so much that I quit going to the Crusade
meetings. At this church, there was a rock band with electric guitars, and people were waving their hands in the air (above
their heads, with their eyes closed) and singing "hallelujah." I had never seen anything like it! I see things like
this now on TV, but coming from a very small Presbyterian church, I was disturbed. Others in Campus Crusade loved this church,
and they continued to go. The atmosphere seemed so far removed from the worship of God, and I didn't feel comfortable returning.
I always felt closest to God when I was in a quiet setting and/or outdoors. I started taking walks around campus (Lewis
& Clark College has a beautiful campus!), sitting on benches, looking at the view of Mount Hood, watching
the trees change colors. One day I wandered into the campus chapel - a small, round building nestled in the trees. It was
beautifully simple. The pews formed a circle around the center of the room, and a huge pipe organ hung from the ceiling in
the middle. No altar, no crosses, no statues - nothing. Just some simple wood benches and a pipe organ. During the rest of
the year, I spent a lot of time in this building, listening to the organist practice, or just sitting alone in the quiet to
think. I felt more comfortable and close to God there than at any church I had ever been to.
During this time, I was also meeting with a group of international students as part of the Conversation Group program.
We had 5 people in our group: me, a Japanese man and woman, an Italian man and a Palestinian man. We met twice a week over
lunch, to practice English conversation skills. We talked about our families, our studies, our childhoods, cultural differences,
etc. As I listened to the Palestinian man (Faris) talk about his life, his family, his faith, etc., it struck a nerve in me.
I remembered Sherif, Fatima and Maysoon, the only other Muslims I had ever known. Previously, I had seen their beliefs and
way of life as foreign, something that was alien to my culture. I never bothered to learn about their faith because of this
cultural barrier. But the more I learned about Islam, the more I became interested in it as a possibility for my own life.
During my second term of school, the conversation group disbanded and the international students transferred to other schools.
The discussions we had, however, stayed at the front of my thoughts. The following term, I registered for a class in the religious
studies department: Introduction to Islam. This class brought back all of the concerns that I had about Christianity. As I
learned about Islam, all of my questions were answered. All of us are not punished for Adam's original sin. Adam
asked God for forgiveness and our Merciful and Loving God forgave him. God doesn't require a blood sacrifice
in payment for sin. We must sincerely ask for forgiveness and amend our ways. Jesus wasn't God,
he was a prophet, like all of the other prophets, who all taught the same message: Believe in the One true God; worship and
submit to Him alone; and live a righteous life according to the guidance He has sent. This answered all of my questions about
the trinity and the nature of Jesus (all God, all human, or a combination). God is a Perfect and Fair Judge, who will reward
or punish us based on our faith and righteousness. I found a teaching that put everything in its proper perspective,
and appealed to my heart and my intellect. It seemed natural. It wasn't confusing. I had been searching,
and I had found a place to rest my faith.
That summer, I returned home to the Bay Area and continued my studies of Islam. I checked books out of the library and
talked with my friends. They were as deeply spiritual as I was, and had also been searching (most of them were looking into
eastern religions, Buddhism in particular). They understood my search, and were happy I could find something to believe in.
They raised questions, though, about how Islam would affect my life: as a woman, as a liberal Californian :), with my family,
etc. I continued to study, pray and soul-search to see how comfortable I really was with it. I sought out Islamic centers
in my area, but the closest one was in San Francisco, and I never got there to visit (no car, and bus schedules didn't fit
with my work schedule). So I continued to search on my own. When it came up in conversation, I talked to my family about it.
I remember one time in particular, when we were all watching a public television program about the Eskimos. They said that
the Eskimos have over 200 words for `snow,' because snow is such a big part of their life. Later that night, we were talking
about how different languages have many words for things that are important to them. My father commented about all the different
words Americans use for `money' (money, dough, bread, etc.). I commented, "You know, the Muslims have 99 names for God - I
guess that's what is important to them."
At the end of the summer, I returned to Lewis & Clark. The first thing I did was contact the mosque in southwest Portland.
I asked for the name of a woman I could talk to, and they gave me the number of a Muslim American sister. That week, I visited
her at home. After talking for a while, she realized that I was already a believer. I told her I was just looking for some
women who could help guide me in the practicalities of what it meant to be a Muslim. For example, how to pray. I had read
it in books, but I couldn't figure out how to do it just from books. I made attempts, and prayed in English, but I knew I
wasn't doing it right. The sister invited me that night to an aqiqa (dinner after the birth of a new baby). She picked me
up that night and we went. I felt so comfortable with the Muslim sisters there, and they were very friendly to me that night.
I said my shahaada, witnessed by a few sisters. They taught me how to pray. They talked to me about their own faith (many
of them were also American). I left that night feeling like I had just started a new life.
I was still living in a campus dorm, and was pretty isolated from the Muslim community. I had to take 2 buses to get to
the area where the mosque was (and where most of the women lived). I quickly lost touch with the women I met, and was left
to pursue my faith on my own at school. I made a few attempts to go to the mosque, but was confused by the meeting times.
Sometimes I'd show up to borrow some books from the library, and the whole building would be full of men. Another time I decided
to go to my first Jumah prayer, and I couldn't go in for the same reason. Later, I was told that women only meet at a certain
time (Saturday afternoon), and that I couldn't go at other times. I was discouraged and confused, but I continued to have
faith and learn on my own.
Six months after my shahaada, I observed my first Ramadan. I had been contemplating the issue of hijab, but was too scared
to take that step before. I had already begun to dress more modestly, and usually wore a scarf over my shoulders (when I visited
the sister, she told me "all you have to do is move that scarf from your shoulders to your head, and you'll be Islamically
dressed."). At first I didn't feel ready to wear hijab, because I didn't feel strong enough in my faith. I understood the
reason for it, agreed with it, and admired the women who did wear it. They looked so pious and noble. But I knew that if I
wore it, people would ask me a lot of questions, and I didn't feel ready or strong enough to deal with that.
This changed as Ramadan approached, and on the first day of Ramadan, I woke up and went to class in hijab. Alhamdillah,
I haven't taken it off since. Something about Ramadan helped me to feel strong, and proud to be a Muslim. I felt ready to
answer anybody's questions.
However, I also felt isolated and lonely during that first Ramadan. No one from the Muslim community even called me. I
was on a meal plan at school, so I had to arrange to get special meals (the dining hall wasn't open during the hours I could
eat). The school agreed to give me my meals in bag lunches. So every night as sundown approached, I'd walk across the street
to the kitchen, go in the back to the huge refrigerators, and take my 2 bag lunches (one for fitoor, one for suhoor). I'd
bring the bags back to my dorm room and eat alone. They always had the same thing: yoghurt, a piece of fruit, cookies, and
either a tuna or egg salad sandwich. The same thing, for both meals, for the whole month. I was lonely, but at the same time
I had never felt more at peace with myself.
When I embraced Islam, I told my family. They were not surprised. They kind of saw it coming, from my actions and what
I said when I was home that summer. They accepted my decision, and knew that I was sincere. Even before, my family always
accepted my activities and my deep faith, even if they didn't share it. They were not as open-minded, however, when I started
to wear hijab. They worried that I was cutting myself off from society, that I would be discriminated against, that it would
discourage me from reaching my goals, and they were embarrassed to be seen with me. They thought it was too radical. They
didn't mind if I had a different faith, but they didn't like it to affect my life in an outward way.
They were more upset when I decided to get married. During this time, I had gotten back in touch with Faris, the Muslim
Palestinian brother of my conversation group, the one who first prompted my interest in Islam. He was still in the Portland
area, attending the community college. We started meeting again, over lunch, in the library, at his brother's house, etc.
We were married the following summer (after my sophomore year, a year after my shahaada). My family freaked out. They weren't
quite yet over my hijab, and they felt like I had thrown something else at them. They argued that I was too young, and worried
that I would abandon my goals, drop out of school, become a young mother, and destroy my life. They liked my husband, but
didn't trust him at first (they were thinking `green card scam'). My family and I fought over this for several months, and
I feared that our relationship would never be repaired.
That was 3 years ago, and a lot has changed. Faris and I moved to Corvallis, Oregon, home of Oregon State University. We
live in a very strong and close-knit Muslim community. I graduated magna cum laude last year, with a degree in child
development. I have had several jobs, from secretary to preschool teacher, with no problems about my hijab. I'm active in
the community, and still do volunteer work. My husband, insha'Allah, will finish his Electrical Engineering degree this year.
We visit my family a couple of times a year. I met Faris' parents for the first time this summer, and we get along great.
I'm slowly but surely adding Arabic to the list of languages I speak.
My family has seen all of this, and has recognized that I didn't destroy my life. They see that Islam has brought me happiness,
not pain and sorrow. They are proud of my accomplishments, and can see that I am truly happy and at peace. Our relationship
is back to normal, and they are looking forward to our visit next month, insha'Allah.
Looking back on all of this, I feel truly grateful that Allah has guided me to where I am today. I truly feel blessed.
It seems that all of the pieces of my life fit together in a pattern - a path to Islam.
Alhamdillillahi rabi al'amin.
Your sister in faith, C. Huda Dodge
"...Say: Allah's guidance is the only guidance, and we have been directed to submit ourselves to the Lord
of the Worlds..." Qur'an 6:71